Jones- NSC , states that they never should have tested him for “street drugs”

Dear god. SO we just supposed to turn our heads and pretend this never happened and continue to overlook the issue here.. fuck… yes he is a good fighter that will not be taken away or discredited…that’s is irrelevant to the point … mutha fucker used CO CA I NE (no disrespect)… regardless If they “should have never tested for ‘street drugz'” he used ..he went to rehab (i applauded and give em props) the fact that he would have not gotten any repercussions is bullshit…. fighters have ‘Broken a toe ‘Or injured and stripped from the title., or benched and their title was fought interm for …..Nick Diaz got suspended for a year for weed and we still don’t even know if he was high during the fight!!!? .. are you fucking kidding me… way too early to get me started…lol
http://www.bloodyelbow.com/2015/1/7/7509759/ufc-182-jon-jones-cocaine-drug-test-failure-administrative-oversight-responsible-mma-news

As much as I ..

Nov.2014

As much as I want to say I don’t miss u…
I can’t
As much as I want to pretend this never happened…
I can’t
As much as I wanna walk away..
I can’t
As much as I want to hate u.
I can’t
As much as I wanna say don’t want to be in your arms.
I do
As much as I wanna tell myself things will be OK…
I cant
As much as I don’t want to say I don’t have feelings for you….
I can’t
I try and say my feelings weren’t real.. I can’t
As much as want to say I don’t want see you…
I can’t
I can’t because I do miss u. I do want to be in ur arms. I do feel. .and I can’t believe I fucked up to the point of losing u.
I want to see u. I want to make things right…
Can you honestly say u don’t..?

Things will never be the same….

How sad….

Rain is falling heavily upon me to help me die
too much pain for me to take 

All by myself 

with no one to lend a hand

whitewashed walls 

Pressed unto my body

         The suffering

             The pain

A vague memory of a once happy child

Has NOW become a suffering Young  Woman 

As to rest in peace

is but a dream

 

   HOW SAD!